Yea. Thats right. I'm ALONE at macs. How pathetic can I get? I've got school tomorrow and everyone I came here with is SMOKING. My God. Save me. SMOKING. Like I don't have enough.
I could just take that secret thing some lost soul gave me and stab myself. COULD.
This week is getting worse and worse but relying on only one thing is whats keeping me alive. God. Help me. No one can see it, no one can understand the hell thats going on. C'mon man. Cut me some slack. I'm tired and I can't sleep, I'm cranky, my laptop screwed up and I lost ALL information, and the list goes on. What is going on?! What kind of trial is this? How do you be joyful in this time? I wanna go home. Its as good. I should. I hate this, God, I hate it so much. All I can think of is You are faithful. Every now and then I stop and think if I really mean it. I do but I don't know how long I can take. Not very long with my own ability but I try to rely on You, SO MUCH.
Make me better Lord. Make me better. I'm not satisfied. Make me better!
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