These 3 days have been the most unbelievable 3 days I have ever been through. The first day was total crap but I couldn't believe how quickly I recovered after I made the decision to pick up my guitar and sing priases to the Lord and I realised, I couldn't. Huh? Lizzie I thought you said you recovered? I did. Only after I sang a cry to the Lord and He heard my prayer. I rested and in all faith and numbness, I went to school wide awake. The bus came immediately when I reached the bus stop. Energy filled til the end of a rather easy school day in the most disgusting module, then finally I felt tired. I had peace on the train, prayed that the bus would come swiftly and never before has it happened to me that 53 arrived before 58. Had a little rest at cell and a great dinner. (although I still cannot figure out what is going on with my appetite) REALLY. I still can't stop thinking about it. Went home and the rest was worthy of giving thanks for. The trial that made me stronger. The trial that made me trust. The trial that showed me I was not alone. Thank you Ryan and Tim. And finally, my prayers were not in vain as usual. I had a good long conversation that made me cry, not because I was sad but because I have never heard that from anyone in that position before.
Today's rest was really good too. Got up, realised I would be late and later, realised my friend would be later. Got my hair done, ate a lot (and yet no appetite). Jalan jalan until we were totally tired and aching. The rest was insanely good.
Even through that trial I assure you I did not forget that I was not the only one feeling that way, but I knew I was in desperate need of help and wisdom. Both came.
God has been faithful and will always be faithful. My Daddy in heaven, my Daddy in my heart. "(f)Father" has never taken a role in my life until now and I am grateful, happy, overjoyed! etc. haha. And I know what it means to have a dad who loves and cares, and also how hard it is for a mother to play the role of two parents. Diffucult wouldn't even come close to describing it. The one verse that kept me through it: Psalm 27 13 I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
(-kudos to the messenger!)
Back again, for You. Back again in Your arms. Now I'm desperate and thirsty But I hunger no more. How is it so? Who willed it so? Let me be, in Your eyes Who I was made to be.
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