A Momentary Lapse

Saturday, December 06, 2008

What is this?

Its supercalifragelisticespielladocious-ly early in the morning and I can't get to sleep.
Why!
Let me sleep!
I'm tired and I still can't shut my brain off.
Shush.
Was just checking my views for the blog and I realised I have a pretty good response (minus my own views)

So I was reading Ryan's blog...yes hello...
and I came to his cell-worship-dilemma post.
It just juiced my heart that moment.
(juiced: like when you juice a fruit...squeeze til all the juice comes out and throw the rest away)
My BuMs cell clashes with sunday sound check too and I've been through endless insulting crap just to get to worship.
Yes. Now you know.
Its not like I demanded sound check to be on sunday mornings at 9.
It was scheduled by higher power!

But that was eons ago.
I now no longer face that problem because I have already stopped singing.
Sad? Yea.
Relieved? Definitely.
Happy? A little.
So now I can go for cell.
But of couse I've also stopped leading.
So I'm practically a ghost.
We'll see how things turn out for this ghost.

boo, I don't scare me. I don't scare you either.
ah.
fear me.
-.-

I really miss worshipping with the band, I mean despite all that we've gone through, it's probably why I'm feeling this way.
From the times at the sanctuary where we could have a debrief then sit out on the steps and cry, until today, those were the "good ol' days".
I miss those days.
But I miss the days I don't get to miss either.
So this is 20% of what it'd feel like leaving for 3 years.

When I come back, I don't know what will happen but I have decided to do the following wherever I am:
1) Be friendly
2) Get accquainted with the people and the place
3) Never let the flame die out
4) Never compare the culture in NZ and Singapore
5) Visit old friends
6) Make a decision on where to settle down

Ah yes.
Resolutions that probably will not be fulfilled.
But they're good to have anyway.
They may seem insulting or weird to you, but its the truth.
You never know.
You! Reading this...you may be the closest friend I have now or close or I just know you.
But you may just ignore me or pretend not to know me when I get back.
You never know.
I'm not going to pretend I was ever/never close to you.
Just a point to note.

Not angry or sad.
Just thinking.
But for now, I love you guys.
Expect calls from NZ!
If you get strange calls in Feb, please pick up.
I will be calling!
:D

I'm so ready to go.
haha.

Leaving on a jet plane, don't know when I'll be back again...

eliZABeth 9:32 AM