Everything seems so bleak now. Since leaving and coming here supposed to be BETTER. It seems now that I've been reduced to writing summaries and finding out about things I don't need to know rather than taking time to improve my skill. Truth is, I don't know if I have time. Heck I'll make time. Just tell me what I'm supposed to do. I mean, I need some sense of hope that this is bigger than what it seems and bigger than what I imagine. Nothing, in words and action seem to help build my confidence and hope in what I'm doing. Now, it all seems HOPELESS.
So why is it that "giant" doesn't seem so big? Or does that not apply anymore? Then what about the pockets of revival? Are they like MASSIVE or just really coin pockets? Its very very bleak now. Extremely. And its not doing any good for any "man" of mine, spirit and so on.
Truthfully, I'm devastated.
I don't know what your plan is. I don't know what to say cos its all coming out bad in my head. "...it better be good"
Its tiring. And draining. And work's starting to pile up. Do I not need to eat and sleep? Or is it no longer applicable?
Help me believe again. I need to believe again. Help.
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