A Momentary Lapse

Friday, June 30, 2006

Ask me about Jesus

1 John 4:18 - There is no fear in love; perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

You ask me how he is great?
Well, he gave me a friend. I thank him for Amir.
He gave me a friend who cares. I thank him for Hanaan and Fazi.
He gave me a friend who understands. I thank him for Dee.

Now, no matter what sarcasm thrown at me in class, I know there's always space to throw it out in mentorship. Then in mentorship, I know I can always talk to Audrey, Joee, Mark, Dwight, Dee or Hanaan about it. I love you guys so much and I miss you all. Seems like a long time since I've met with some of you but of course I'll be seeing a lot of Dee and Hanaan. (:

ok. some photos are missing but I don't have a choice! I havent taken a pic with Mark or Dee, so that'll have to wait. ^^
Hope to see you guys soon! *Hugs and never lets go*

My praise goes out to you

eliZABeth 7:10 PM

Thursday, June 29, 2006

deftrack drive

please go watch the production. We've been stressing lately.

There's been so much going on. Through my anger and sadness I have so much to be thankful for and the week hasn't ended yet. Thanks Mark, love ya bro. Joee, SORRY! got wedding la...

Project joy people...well, could you try to be a little more discrete in a less abhored, sarcastic manner? You DO know that telling me I'm dead just because I have to sing my own collaborated song isn't helping right? More so, telling me "Dawn and Yun can sing meh?" was not a very helpful remark either. It didn't put me down though. Actually motivated me. But if you DO want to sing you could just ask and not go"If you need male vocals..."
If I do I'd ask Amir. Thanks.
Big blow huh? Well, you're not the only one with choir training buddy!

You've got to stop now BirD.
Ok. I shall.
GOOD.

I found love beyond all reason...
Caught in the mercy fallout, found hope, found life, found all I need.

eliZABeth 8:04 PM

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

RP Magdalene - Project Joy

9th July(Sunday), 4pm - National Museum

15th July(Saturday), 8pm - Woodlands CC

This event is produced by our very own year 1 School of Technology for the Arts(STA) students. Its about how people of different cultures, personalities and backgrounds are interrelated, forming some kind of connection with each other. Come catch us in action as we showcase our talents with our very own production, complete with an original song! (Content liable to change)

See you there!

eliZABeth 6:04 PM

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

James 5:15-16

And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.

Put a new song in my heart

eliZABeth 8:31 AM

Proverbs 18:24

A man who has friends must himself be friendly.

To have a friend, you have to be one.
So I must've been one. Or am one.

I was talking to Mildred the other day about our school lives. They're almost similiar. We've both got friends in school but just not those that you can tell everything to. Even if we do, they're really far away. Everything we look forward to is outside our education institution.

Since we left PL, the walls there no longer shelter us from the world. The only second home left is the church and the church gives us a place we can rest our spirit. Being in school is without a doubt both physically and spiritually tiring. You fight to stay awake, you fight those insensitive people who persecute you.

And if you didnt realise, I digressed from the topic in one whole paragraph! ^^

And we're back. Saturday showed me how many people actually noticed and cared. Even the most unexpected few whom I haven't talked to in a while. Thanks guys.
And Audrey, if you ever need me I'm always a level above you. Literally. Save for today.

I don't wanna be so obvious
I wonder why I'm feeling this way.

eliZABeth 3:00 AM

Saturday, June 24, 2006

tantalising tentacles trandescend on transportation

before I wander into the wonderful world of dreamland, I want to say something.
1)Never make accusations when you do not have proof.
2)Never be emo to a large extent.
3)Always look on the bright side of life. (it helps)

Now things I have to do:
1)Wake early
2)Thank mildred when she calls me at 7am
3)Thank Dwight for therapy
4)Get more chocolate
5)Swim more to prevent the occassional asthma attack
6)Get a foot massage so I'll stop cramping. *gritgritgrit*

Alls said and done. I'm off now good poeple.

Falling into place

eliZABeth 7:53 PM

friend fire fiend

This episode of Avatar is SO exciting! Saka is going to fight the fire nation while he is in love with this princess of a water tribe. Now he's leading this group of soldiers with Han as "head" of the group who is the guy who's supposed to marry that princess , yu a?

Well, take care kiddo and get well. Everyone's falling sick. Yun/Dee is sick. Dwight's sick. I'm sick.

Aang is so cute. With his pet, Momo, a flying lemur, they are the most hilarious thing that happened in this show.

The love stories and lessons incorporated into the show are strangely refreshing. *shrug* no? Must be my imagination.

Thats it for today folks! Its the weekend and I live to see it. *wibbles*

Far away for far too long.

eliZABeth 2:18 PM

Friday, June 23, 2006

A song for Dawn

I walk alone as the world goes by
before me
I pray every night just to ask you why
You left me in the dark
Darkness falls, I want to let go V1
All alone, but I feel fine
Cause I'm young and i'm hopeless Im lost
And I know this

When I think about my life
I wonder if I can stand it
So confused about what to do
And I'm confused about what to say C
I don't wanna be so obvious
I wonder why I'm feeling this way

I start to lose my mind, no one knows
What I feel
Time I wish to rewind.
I wanna break down and cry. V2
I start to think what it'd be like to be
All alone...
It's just the way that I am.
I don't plan on changing...
anytime soon

I wish I was dreaming.
I wish I were leaving. B
I wish I was dreaming
In my sleep. (x4)

eliZABeth 6:29 AM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

make me your chocolate fountain

The emo kid Dawn is here. I never want to be her though she's cool and all.
My dear, I love you as much as I would a brother, as much as I would a sister.
Thats a picture of Dawn and her keys.
As much and more I would a friend. I love you and I'm not afraid to say it this time.
Or me and my keys. Either way, it's still me.
No risk involved in holding it back, no lethal effect in disclosing it.
Right? Well, school later.
I love you and I'd say it again.
Early start, late end.
I love you.

I'm breaking free

eliZABeth 7:19 PM

Just wondering how fast time pasts. That was me a few bazillion years ago so you know how old I am.

Thats right.
I'm a few bazillion years old.

No I won't be hurt, no more

eliZABeth 6:30 AM

picture on the wall

They say it again and again, they don't mean it. (or not.) I wish they'd stop yet part of me wants them to go on. It might be true but I'm not going to be hurt. Not again.
They go on with their lies and deceit. I don't give a damn. They aren't my friends, they are the very thing they I don't want them to be - me.
But they say it again, and I know its true. But I won't be hurt. Not again, not again.

Must get into character. So DO NOT be alarmed if I'm way too quiet or look seriously troubled. That would be because I am and must be. ^^ emo kid what...

RP Magdelene - PROJECT JOY
9 July - National Museum
15 July - Woodlands CC

(time yet to be confirmed)

So catch us in action!

That's what I'll do to get to you.
For you I will.

eliZABeth 5:31 AM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

honey back home

The freak's back from batam. Not the one in the glass case.

Today's mentorship was good actually. We ACTUALLY started on the scenes and now we have to plan our script. I'm the loner emo kid named Dawn. Cool eh?

Well, catch project joy, RP Magdelene at 3 locations this summer: Woodlands CC, the National Museum and RP! An artistic edge to theatre to see how different people, despite their differences are connected and can influence one another. So catch us soon! (More details to come, stay tuned.)

Take me home

eliZABeth 6:22 PM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

hurry back home

I find myself thinking
Wondering how it could be
If I never loved
Would you care about me

I find myself drifting
Off to the sky
The same blue we share
I'm wondering why

So tell me how I could relinguish this pain
This pleasure to love that could rust in the rain
So tell me how I can stop loving you more
Please tell me sooner or I'd have to fall.

So tell me how I can hold back this name
I hold so dearly I might go insane
So tell me how I can let you go too
To find something else when I'm thinking of you.
To find something else when I'm thinking of you.

I hear it in my head as some kind of old country folk song thats quite cool. A little jazzy, but country. That was instictively written, also means I wrote it on the spot. I'm turning into Fuzi! so in love, only I don't know with what. WHAT?! I don't know what or who I'm in love with? (well, if you can call it love)

I find myself drifting into that fog I once knew, that old mist of memory we had. I can't stop thinking of Wednesday when I can get my mind off you, or so I think.

2 seconds worth of precious thoughts.
Just my guitar and me. Well, its a tuesday and I'm off to sleepp before I doze off presenting in class tomorrow.

Right, night. (no rhyme)

eliZABeth 8:00 PM

transcript

They say it, but they may not mean it. Yet i wish they would go on, I wish it were true.
Oh well.
School's here and I'm blogging during lesson.

Here's one reason for the URL of this weblog:

In Paris With You

Don't talk to me of love.
I've had an earful
And I get tearful when I've downed a drink or two.
I'm one of your talking wounded.
I'm a hostage. I'm maroonded.
But I'm in Paris with you.

Yes I'm angry at the way I've been bamboozled
And resentful at the mess I've been through.
I admit I'm on the rebound
And I don't care where are we bound.
I'm in Paris with you.

Do you mind if we do not go to the Louvre
If we say sod off to sodding Notre Dame,
If we skip the Champs Elysées
And remain here in this sleazy

Old hotel room
Doing this and that
To what and whom
Learning who you are,
Learning what I am.

Don't talk to me of love.
Let's talk of Paris,
The little bit of Paris in our view.
There's that crack across the ceiling
And the hotel walls are peeling
And I'm in Paris with you.

Don't talk to me of love.
Let's talk of Paris.
I'm in Paris with the slightest thing you do.
I'm in Paris with your eyes, your mouth,
I'm in Paris with... all points south.
Am I embarrassing you?
I'm in Paris with you.

-James Fenton

thanx Mr Lee for that. Miss the PL and MI days.

I'm comin' back to the start

eliZABeth 6:40 AM

Monday, June 19, 2006

superhuman

I like pictures that show how I feel. I find them highly amusing.

Well, I'm wondering how I'm going to cope tomorrow and Tuesday. Dwight's in indonesia and I'm gonna have absolutely NO self entertainment during lesson.

I MUST COPE. MUST!!!

I'm fine. Everything is alright. Today we didn't do too bad. The songs we jammed were average but it was a good sound despite the technical and technology difficiency. Selwyn was bored. Sorry kiddo. We'll give you more solos next time^^

Thats all for today. There's school tomorrow and I'm dreading it. DREADING IT!

I don't wanna waste your time

eliZABeth 6:40 PM

Sunday, June 18, 2006

breaking free

high school musical is a great show. makes you want to break into song too.

well, Dwight's gonna be back on tuesday and I've got school on Monday. Well, yesterday was great at Spenser's. We watched the Netherlands match at his gram's house then headed back to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. Later had nothing to do so we decided to play card games and stuff with Spenser, Jap and me ganging up to make Dwight lose. ^^
Then we played Pokemon Monopoly which got boring and finally at around 8 we decided to sleep. Our supposed 8.30 alarm went off but no one except Dwight got up so he slept again. Then I got up and slep again. Finally, i woke at 10 then the rest rose at 10.45 onwards with Jowell, Dwight, Japheth followed by Spenser. It was hilarious. Being retarded morning people, we watched some power ranger wanna-be show on kids central then decided to go home.

This church camp, MBJD must go together no matter what.

The start of something new

eliZABeth 9:35 PM

Friday, June 16, 2006

paranoia dictates

I am paranoia. BirD is currently unavailable at the moment.

that was sick. *gawks*
I like Spenser's phone.

It puts us behind bars.

see why I like it?

no? well, nevermind then.

and O YES! Mildred is back in Singapore! Hooray!

paranoia desists

eliZABeth 9:19 PM

Monday, June 12, 2006

indie-genius

well, I got nothing despite the cool title.

Angels and Airwaves just got to me. Drilled into my head at HMV today.
it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts...

Dinner with Joee was the best. Haven't had such a good laugh in such a long time. PTL! in all ways.
I keep dreaming
you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing
if I don't see you anymore
Joee, its now in my head.

I CAN'T SLEEP! Dwight! you better not forget that song or I'll get a permanent prescription for insomnia. You know you know you know... The words are so beautiful I could slap you for it. Well, I'm going to TRY to get to sleep now.

I'd give for us, give anything but I won't give up

eliZABeth 8:39 PM

Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming
you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing
if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming
you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing
if I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know,
you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go

So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
So keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
So keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

eliZABeth 8:07 PM

things that go Boo in the night

Im held by your love
Im held by your strength
On your shoulders you hold me
By your faith I stand
Cherished by you Lord
Treasured in your sight
So close to your heart
Held firm in your hands

So awesome is your love
So mighty is your hand
On eagles' wings you carry me
Your grace shall be my strength
So perfect is your love
You sacrificed your son
Amazing love reached out to me
With joy to you I come (to you I come)

Not by my wisdom
Not by my strength
Gently you guide me
Lead me by hand
Total surrender
Jesus I am yours
Now and forever
In Christ light I stand

Now how would you feel if you had that in your mind EVERYDAY that you are held in his love and he is your strength? Here's a few hints : contentment, complete, whole.

Well, yesterday was a great day for me. I got to leave my house early (3pm) for a meeting til 5.30pm. Karina and I then went to heartland to get Jappy's present and eat and guess who I met at the mee pok stall? YUN LU!!!!!! haven't seen her in a long time.
Miss those times on the bus and the few lunches, dinners and most importantly class time. I miss PL. I miss the people, the environment, the classes and the crazy things we do. I miss that feeling of walking across the basketball court in the morning then stop to look at the occasional mist over the estate down below. The classrooms are the best. They can be stuffy and cooling at the ssame time. Its amazing. It can make you swelter and sweat and other times its freezing cold.

Those were the days.

eliZABeth 7:33 AM

Saturday, June 10, 2006

post-farewell blues

I never like goodbyes, but even so, it'd be nice if people actually said goodbye on msn once in a while. Thats not why I'm blogging 3 times today.

I am emo for a reason. Just let me be. Ask me why or don't, I just MIGHT tell you. Well, when something happens it'll stay in my mind forever and I'll keep pondering on the situation over and over and over and over... ... you get the point. So thanks to you, I CANT SLEEP TONIGHT!!! at 2 am+ I'm wide awake and being emo. It sucks.

Digress

I went to meet my mommy at Dhoby Gaud (or however you spell it). We wandered around for a long time after eating at BK. (brings back sweet sweet memories) After that, decided to head to Clarke Quay for dinner. We ate at Fish Tales and it was SUPER! The fries were...whoo... and the fish was ...WHOA!... nothing more, nothing less. It was an ok time compared to earlier in the day. I got home and came online, which was when Dwight and Moo somehow convinced me to watch this chinese cartoon. It was quite interesting actually. Ask moo for it. ^^ well its late and I'm off to be emo until I decide to get over. FREAK!

Daughter to father, tell me the truth...did you ever love me? these are the confessions of a broken heart.

eliZABeth 9:47 PM

Re-entry: 6 June 2006

Its supposed to be the day no baby should be born. Well that would be highly impossible and could possibly affect the birth rate of a country. AND imagine the agony of mothers around the world...

"My baby's coming! NO !!! NOT TODAY ! PUSH IT BACK IN ! AHHH !!!"

well, thats one scenario down. I still don't get why people like to scare themselves unnecessarily. They're either trying to train their fear tolerance level or try to die of a heart attack by 20, ok maybe 30. The point is, despite the COMPLETELY "its-obvious-its-a-movie-which-is-fiction-and-i-won't-believe-in-it" comments, in some part of your sub-concious existance, you'd find there is a part of it that gets to you.

I've said all I wanted to say. My purpose is not to discourage the movie. I would actually encourage watching something like that to find out how people can put such fear into a movie and relay it to its audience. Intriguing, aye?

Well, I feel it unwise but the world would think otherwise. Thats a nice thing right? *shrugs* better luck next time!

No question, only comments

eliZABeth 6:29 AM

freak show

MY EYES!!! I cant find them!! I want to marry his guitar. CAN I?! PLEASE?!

o well, thankfully it wasn't as unglam as i expected due to a certain SOMEONE who took the picture. ^^
I'm off.

I never knew

eliZABeth 5:43 AM

Friday, June 09, 2006

last placement

KARINA!!! you did well on sat girl!! you sang for God and thats all that matters.

Believe me. I admire Karina for her learning spirit and she has improved tremedously. Thank you Paul for all your help and coaching.

My endless devotion to the group I could never express. Haha...I love you guys.

I am SO gone. My mom says I spend too much time on it but I feel I haven't given enough.

-seperator-

I come before your throne
To worship at your feet
To look upon your nail pierced hands O Lord
How awesome is your love.

For you, your grace restores my soul
You set your heart on me
You set me in your righteousness

Fall afresh on me
Move within my heart
Let your tenderness consume me
Pour your love on me
Like rain upon my face
Til everything I am
Is lost in your embrace
Fall afresh on me.

I leave you with these words to ponder over. Is this how you REALLY feel? How desperate you are every Saturday when you step into the cold freezing sanctuary to worship and listen to his word? Or do you go into that place without excitement, no fire or what-so-ever spark and just sit through the sermon with a closed heart and end up talking to the persons beside you?

Think about it. I am guilty of that sometimes, I confess and I'm not proud of it either. Hope to change and hope to achieve. Thats all I can do for now.

Open up my heart and you will find
This fire burns so deep
It burns so bright for you.

eliZABeth 6:52 AM

Thursday, June 08, 2006

mind games

try recording your thoughts for 15 mins or more. You'd find how your mind drifts from one thing to another. I did that today for one hour and it was really interesting to see what I think about go down on paper. Right now I have 2 pages worth of 1 hour of thinking. Ask me and you'll know^^

wake me up

eliZABeth 1:56 PM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

rationale reject

when curiosity killed that cat. This cap wasn't sweaty and gross like Jowell's. It was in fact, WEAR-A-BLE. Billabong love <3

gimmie a frapp and turn it up.

eliZABeth 7:59 PM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

heaven is...

1) when you have your two best friends in the entire world beside you and you are communing with God.

2) when you have God

3) when you have your 2 bestest friends on earth make you laugh when you feel like crying.

Therefore, I am in heaven. Thank you. All of you.

Dance with me

eliZABeth 7:32 PM

Monday, June 05, 2006

evo turbo

I like pastor B. He's entertaining in youth AND in trad service.

yesterday:
There were 3 kinds of disciples he said. The profused, the defused and the confused. It hit me in all these that we are not to stand gaping at his glory in awe but to do something; be a witness of and FOR him and glorfy his name to the ends of the earth.
Do I hear an amen?!

~seperator~

I received a really comforting message from Uncle Allan today. It said that God loves me and that he gave me friends and elders to talk to. When I received the message I almost broke down on 53. I am glad that the Lord has provided although I think I'm alone or no one wants to help me. As Luke had mentioned, it is in our weakest moments the Lord chooses to act, and for one purpose only - to let us realise that it is not by our own efforts of prayer that he provides but it is by his grace, power and mercy that we are what we are today.

Praise adonai.

eliZABeth 8:11 PM

Sunday, June 04, 2006

scent of you in the day

makes me sneeze. The breath of fresh air after getting out my stuffy room. I sneeze. They should create an isneeze. haha. stops violent sneezing like Dwight's. Dangerous.

Point well taken.

ANNOUNCEMENT!
I am moving back to this blog and the other one will be used as a temporary storage for my photos and other stuff you guys can view there.

Back to my point.

Today was an eventful day beginning much later in the morning. The fun begins. Met josie and discussed about the ministry. It was GOOD to let everything out. Then was church. I wanna say I'm sorry I couldn't cheer you up Joee. I was quite troubled the entire time and Dwight should know. *ASDSIOVJNKSNDFJBV*

yes..pastor B talked about imitating people and he was starting on the subject of the show "performing as..." it sounded like it had an extra 's'.
Just the thing I needed. Humour.

Dwight...I can't count how much I owe you but it sure (not heaven) is a lot. I owe you lunch/dinner. My 3 bestest friends in the world. Joee, Dwighty and the good Lord who gave me the other 2.

Hallelujah!

eliZABeth 7:32 PM

Saturday, June 03, 2006

back in the scene again

Lord I am content.

But why do I still feel that pang of agony when I know he is and always will be my brother? I just don't get it. Why one heartbreak after another?
I turn my eyes to you. I look at the fullness of your face and soak in your glory and your grace.

In you, Lord, I am content.

eliZABeth 8:59 PM

Friday, June 02, 2006

The Good Times...

Then...

Now...

Gosh I miss those times.

eliZABeth 8:20 AM