Some day, when I'm awfully low, When the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking of you And the way you look tonight.
You're lovely, with your smile so warm And your cheeks so soft, There is nothing for me but to love you, And the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows, Tearing my fears apart And that laugh that wrinkles your nose, Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change Keep that breathless charm. Won't you please arrange it? 'Cause I love you Just the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows, Tearing my fears apart And that laugh that wrinkles your nose, Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change Keep that breathless charm. Won't you please arrange it? 'Cause I love you Just the way you look tonight. Just the way you look tonight. Darling Just the way you look tonight.
eliZABeth 6:10 PM
catechise; re-concise
yes. I question my own conduct and AGAIN expressing much in few words; clear and succinct.
I know I shouldn't say this and I'll probably have a private blog for it but its like an oxymoron huh. Private Blog. Well, 2 more days before my departure and I'm already missing everyone. Especially an exceptional someone. The someone that taught me so much that I've learnt, the someone (with everyone else) helped me through the start of my poly life. The someone that has been through with me so much in so little time. It is you. Yes you. Thank you. Even made my last day of school a good one without me actually BEING in school. Cool huh.
Well, thats not it. There's a whole lot more that I can say but I shall stop due to my condition. Fever, cough, flu, headache and some stomachache. 2 of which are now gone. YESS!!!
I'll think of you when I'm there. All of you. Every single one of you. Even if I dont get you anything doesn't mean I don't think of you. It just means I've used up all my money.
I still can't believe I'm missing FaceDown worship. I'll be back SOWing! I love you. Never before have I loved like I do now. I need a slap. A hard one.
Well this is rather intriguing at 4 am. (: morning.
eliZABeth 11:16 PM
trying to find a reason to keep you in mind
friendship's a funny thing.
I was talking to Dwight on Msn (oh the wonders of online chats) about how we actually got this close. It was weird. We had to do a whole lot of thinking before coming to a conclusion that it was something bad that brought about something this good. One thing led to another and POOF!! we're friends.
Like if how I'd think back on how I got to know Joee. I don't remember.
oh well, not the time to think now. I'm tired, sleepy, and not going to school tomorrow.
well, thats it for today. Blogging will resume soon enough. Night people and pray for my trip k?
Can I just have one more moondance with you, my love?
eliZABeth 7:53 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
tag me!!!
... If you comment on this post, 1. I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll challenge you to try something. 3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you. 4. I'll tell you something I like about you. 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you. 8. You must post this on yours
eliZABeth 6:31 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Song sings my heart
Hillsong United album: United We Stand (2006)
A thousand times I've failed Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else My purpose remains The art of losing myself In bringing You praise Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out
Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame And the cry of my heart Is to bring You praise From the inside out Lord my soul cries out
eliZABeth 10:56 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
attack Vs defend
There's been hurt over and over again. Why do I even bother? -Cos you're my friend thats why. I care for you. I have tried and tried and tried threefold my will. I have failed.
You helped me through such tough times and seen me through the easy going, yet I cry. Tell me why... -I am hurt, but for what reasons, I know not. I don't need sympathy, comfort or support. I need my purpose set clear in my sight so I can see where I am going. I don't want to fall in love blindly like I did before. Now you make it so easy to leave, seeing I have no purpose here. Thank you for disrupting my life. You made it better, then you made it worse.
From the inside out Lord my soul cries out.
The ability to fade into an oblivion is the doing I cannot achieve. Even if I want to.
eliZABeth 7:30 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
Caps back
I played caps ball today!!! after ponning training for 2 weeks. I think I will go for this week's training. Maybe we'll get to play with those soccer guys and trash them again.
Well, today was not a bad day. Somehow, those extremely bad times would be followed by the extremely good times. Is amazing how it works.
One last thing before I go. I miss Mark. I mean, even if he comes on sundays it just isnt really what its like being with MBJd. After I leave for NZ, all possibilities of me having these nice little gathering would probably fade into a memory.
Gonna miss you guys. And I cant believe I'm missing 2nd Sept Face-Down worship. :'( you go people!
Fight for Freedom
eliZABeth 7:41 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
God saved the day
You've heard the songs, you've sung it over and over again, but how true is it to you? I'll tell you once and i'll tell you again God saved the day. Today. ok YESTERDAY. 12th August.
We left Friday's wp in faith and in faith we came today. Things weren't going as it usually did and it "gek-ed" us up. *Spasm* I broke down, basically, and because of a lot of other things too. Not just today. So many distractions and he took them ALL away. God of wonders indeed. Up until the point where we started worship, I was still praying and hoping somehow things will be alright.
We stood up on stage and began. It was good. Better than before. It got better and better and I could feel him moving amongst us. He was in our midst.
The whole band was so sweet to sit outside with me for prayer. Thank you guys. Joee and Dwight, thanx for being there when I needed you.
The Lord has been faithful and always will be. He has given me support even when I think I don't and given me all that I need so far, friends, family and those that are both to me. Love you all.
I know my God saved the day And I know his word never fails, Cos I know my God made a way for me.
eliZABeth 8:47 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
one of those moments
Days after national day. I miss being back in secondary school. The days where innocence was complete, the days where I actually HAD friends. Not that I don't have them now, just that its hard to get to the people I love the most. Audie's on the floor below me but she's free on the days I'm busy and vice versa. Hejing's on the floor above me but same scenario. Hanaan's just so far away.
I miss that warm patriotic atmosphere, where we would sit in the sun and watch the contingents marching by unprofessionally, Pri & I grinning at Melissa. The people around using the programme sheets to fan themselves, complaining and more complaining. The times where 4B2 would make stupid noises and partially collaborate with 4C1, when the Sec 4s were at the top of the heirarchy in the school, feeling powerful and mighty. Those days are over. People told me my secondary school days would be the best days of my education. I didn't listen. They were terrible but still the best.
I miss the sheltered walls where we could sit how we wanted to sit, look how we wanted to look and be what we wanted to be. Now I've got sit how I'm supposed to sit, look how I'm supposed to look and act how I'm supposed to act. Life's a stage and I can't deny that.
This is my stage. This is my play. This is my life.
Welcome.
eliZABeth 7:44 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
best times of our lives
OH I HAD THE BEST WEEKEND EVER! finally I get a nice (well deserved or not) break. Mark went to church and supper. Gosh I miss him.
Moo kena bullied so nth much to say. I got to sing with JoEe and her ALONE! SO COOL not only that, sunday I got to sing with Dwight. It sounded nice. If only it were louder. xP
Geez. Best weekend ever! WHOO!!! I can't detail here and thats sad cos EVERYONE who read this will know something they're not supposed to know and they would think they know but they wouldn't. SO...
THANK YOU GUYS FOR MAKING MY WEEKEND!!! charlene, Mark, Moo, Spenc, Jowell, Jappy, Dwight, Joee, The band and sound pple and light pple, marcus, the old lady that played table tennis, Selwyn, Caiying, and all the other significant people who are significant and made my day too! yay! alright.
LUNCH before Roza goes mad. ^^ buh bye
eliZABeth 6:58 AM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
your guitar riff to mine
WHOs Who is in the house with you?: NO ONE Who are you thinking about now?: if you knew, you'd be dead. unless you're joee, audie, or mark. Who did you last talk to on the phone?: Spenser Whose house did you last go to?: mine? haha..my aunt's la. Whose birthday is next?:WEISHAN! you better be thankful! xP ..jkjk Who was the LAST person you loved but not anymore now?: erm...NONE? Who do you hope will take this survey?:weirdos like me
WHATs What was the last thing you ate?: wan ton mee What was the last thing you drank?: 3 friggin cans of coffee. no kick. What is the closest item near you that is blue?:chocolate. What instant messaging service do you use?: msn. one and only. What is your favorite color? (1 only):BLACK. but dwight discourages black. WHY?! What is your most used away message?: away. doh. What is your favorite website?: LEO. haha! What is your favorite shoe brand?: no idea. What song are you currently hearing?: From the inside out. God Songs SO rock man. Where do you live?: the HOU GANG. getit?! heh. Where is your phone?: next to me? oh if you're talking about handphone then...its with Tee. HAHA!! wonder why...quick ask me why! Where do you sleep?: im not that poor. on the bed la then... Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?: i forgot. Australia? Where did you get this survey?: surprisingly...sophil. hmmm
WHENs When is your birthday?: gone and coming again. 11jan. HINT!!! When did you last burn a candle?: if only it was during my analysing a candle module. darn. i forgot. When did you last see your dad?: chinese new year? i want my ang pow.
WHYs Why does basically half the world have a Friendster?: they desperately need a life? no im kidding. i have no idea. Why do we have to go to school?: no idea. but i do learn a lot...(: Why are you taking this survey?: bored la...still got wad. and nothing better to do cos my fingers hurt from playing guitar. darn.
that was pointless. Well, worship went well. Finally got to sing with Joee again. Shan's playing too. Charlene's nuts..selwyn's gonna attack with his square maps of doom and lethal jelly spurting thingys. Oh the terror we inflict upon the unsuspecting lifeforms of this naive planet.
Not that we don't come from this planet. I'm just saying. ^^
Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades.
eliZABeth 9:14 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
tell me you love me and it'll all be alright
Communications today was eventful. I actually learnt something related to my course. Finally.
I've now got this thing for videos and music. Its getting me so INTO my course, its cool. Anyway, tomorrow's another day for enterprise and another possible C for a "non-indepth when it can't be" RJ.
Hopefully I can figure out the html codes to realise that I can actually fit videos into my blog. Another lifetime i guess.
I'd wait a lifetime, just to be with you.
eliZABeth 5:11 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
1st August 2006 - Tuesday - Cognitive Processes at a bus stop
Waiting isn't all that hard. You watch and observe your surroundings as the time passes by. Second by second, you slowly and carefully contemplate your next move. After a while, you begin to talk to yourself about how you feel and what goes on in your head. Is amazing what you can think of in that period of time. Your mind takes you on a drive through Memory Lane, passing those moments and recapping them, so you feel how you felt before.
Now, I don't know what to feel. If I should be happy or sad or even scared. Just waiting isn't doing any good about taking your mind off something. At this point, I'd rather be rejected than accepted, feel demoralised than anxious. That's just it.
Anxiety.
The cause of worry, pain, displeasurable thoughts, overreaction and that raging stomachache. It bubbles and boild in your stomach and never stops until the moment's over. I never had the sense to be anxious when I'm with my friends no matter what I do. They make my day worth the "crime."
There's always the question of "What should I do?" or "What would I say?", but it never gets answered until its over. Thses questions, in all forms, churn over and over, waiting for the words to turn to curd.
Ah great. I lost my train of thought. I just laughed because someone didn't know the meaning of anxiety. We'll see if this portrays the feeling furled up inside. Again, anxiety returns to its domain. 74's here, or not.
It caves in and fills all emptiness, some idiotic thing nagging and jiggling at the back of your head. For example if you are in a dilemma to trust in yourself or conform to society. Yes. It is that feeling - one or worry. Anxiety. Thats what it is.
eliZABeth 2:52 PM
Inspirational Quotes
It’s a funny thing about life If you refuse to accept anything but the best you often get it.
-W Somerset Maugham (1874-1965 Novelist and Playwright)
My cognitive faci gave it to us today. She scared us with the wireless. Rp is a wireless campus and we have the ability to move about the campus and still access the projector in class which projects what is on our screen. Its great. (:
I won't say what happened yesterday, but I'm really glad to have friends like Joee and Dwight who put up with mundane things I do. Thanks guys. You REALLY cheer me up and I don't know how but you just do. (:
Einstein said the only way you'll go crazy is if you think too much. I think I'm going crazy.
eliZABeth 10:29 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
41 hours and the Car
Sunday's plays were good. I especially liked a phrase the car said about car rides. "A car ride forces lives together, to be in a single space, sharing one special moment that they can share."
not an exact quote but almost there. I remember most car rides, like the most recent ones. My uncles' car, uncle James' car, taxis included. ^^
I met Christina at the studio. Good meeting.
41 hours was about marriage. The couple got stuck on the ledge of the husband's office for 41 hours. It was their wedding anniversary and they were to spend it at sentosa. They had their talks and quarrels and eventually, the decision came. They divorced. It was a strong message that was sent across to be sure of what you're getting into, not to waste 10 years of your life expecting a relationship to work out. A relationship takes 2 to make and if one doesn't work, the other might as well give up.
I guess that answers my questions if unrequited love should be valid. It should if you're just in love with love but if you're serious about someone, don't think jealousy is applicable. Its not. Read the bible. Read the intro to my blog. Its there. Don't misinterpret or misread. It is what it is and there's no changing.
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