A Momentary Lapse

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Gloria tagged and my mouth is swollen

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:

1. Chocolates!
2. a massage chair? I need one
3. guitar lessons
4. a nicer room.
5. uh...christian books? haha

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tag you is? gloria crazy yup
2. Your relationship with her is: poly madness
3. Your 5 impressions of her: crazy, guai, SHORT, (she wears shorts too) uh....heart after God AND...enthusiastic.
4. The most memorable thing she had done for you? o.o eat lunch? haha...
5. The most memorable words she had said to you?YOU CAN DO IT!
6. if she becomes your lover, you will? DIE
7. if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?DEATH. I'm just joshing. uh...height? hahah......
8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?make her crazy
9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...i killed her. hahah...
10. the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?GO OUT LAR. haha..
11. your overall impression of him/her is? YAYNESS!
12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?Irritated.
13. the character you love of yourself is?Irritating. duno why. i do sth nice for charlene she always say i irritating. *shrug*
14. on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?irritating
15. the most ideal person you want to be is?JESUS!!!whoo
16. for people that care and like you, say something to them. Same to you BRO!
for people whom i've hurt:Sorry. =( FORGIVE ME! (alternatively, give it up)
for people whom i love and treasure: IEE LUBBS EUUS WIFF ALL MUAII <3 color="#c0c0c0">YEA DUH

What is the surname of no.5?
TEO

What is the nickname of no.10?
haha....SOMA OEY

What is the hobby of no.4?
some outdoor activities. either that or she likes to write songs. hehe..

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
They dont know each other.

Talk something casually about no.1?
MY BESTEST FRIENDEST IN THE WHOLEST WIDEST WORLDEST!

Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
WOT?! NO!

Where does no.9 live at?
NEAR ME! xD

What color does no.4 like?
I DUNOO!!! I GUESS GREEN!

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
NOPE

Does no.7 like no.2?
She wont. haha...

How do you get to know no.2?
uh...He told me some stupid joke abt a hippo in sec 3 -.-

Does no.1 have any pets?
YEA! a doggy!

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
HAHAHAHHAHAHA......
Yes

eliZABeth 2:00 AM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Hit me

It looks like I've got more hits on myspace than any other place on the WWW. Nice.

Its time for mindless rantings again!
Its not logical to think about what I do at this age. I mean C'MON! YOU'VE STILL GOT TIME! *slaps self*
Its love man. Its just love. Its not tormenting, not obsessive, not lustful, not...any of those things I thought it was 3 years ago. Its changed me and made me...finally human. And as much as I think I'm finally ready, I still doubt it.
And there's only one I want. You know it God.

Just hit me! Cos right now, I'm giving myself to my one true lover. =) I love you.

eliZABeth 4:15 PM

Friday, August 24, 2007

My family

Let me introduce you to my family.

Well. Here's the loving side, (I think I see a trend!)

The biggest side, (not the full force)

The motley crew,

Some artistic shot cos more people are missing.

And THE birthday

There you are. Happy birthday Aunty Em. If you ever see this.

eliZABeth 7:50 PM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Quiz me

RULES:1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. Put the last title of the song as the subject.4. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY ?
Shut up - Blink 182 (LOL?! the starting is so...relevant)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Universal Mind - Liquid Tension Experiment (boy this is hilarious)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Letters to you - Finch (o.o)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
An ordinary people - ? (I have no idea.)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne (ayio)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
The Stand - Hillsong cover by me (hilarious)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Here we go again - Paramore (HAHAHAHA)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Over - Lindsay Lohan (WOT?!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Farewell to the old me - Dar Williams (man..i didn't even know I had this song.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
First kiss - NFG ( WHAT THE......)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Draw me closer - Hillsongs United (oi! something wrong sia. but still relevant.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Warmness on the soul - A7x (huh)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hold my hand - NFG (cool.)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Million Dollar Man - Kutless (are you serious?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Dirty Second Hands - Switchfoot (I'm dancing to switchfoot at my wedding?! YAY!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Hold On - Good Charlotte (HAHAHAHAHAHAH. my playlist is crazy)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Cornerstone - Lizzie (apparantly singing.)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Am I not pretty enough - Kasey Chambers (How you know! kidding)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Salvation is here - Hillsongs (EH! its a good thing ok.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Save the last dance for me - Michael Buble (so cute!)

I wanna do this again! funfunfun. discover songs I didn't know I had.

eliZABeth 10:12 AM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Matthew 7:13 -6th Aug '07

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it."

My mama can kick it wide left and wide right...but the ball has got to go through the middle!

The season of change is here and we have got to walk the narrow way despite the scrapes, cuts and piercings. You don't need to experience the hard life but you've got to know your blessings from it. Count them because there are people dying out there and your situation is nothing compared to theirs. Walk the narrow way and have faith. If you love the Lord, you must believe He loves you back! God will prepare the rain and you need to prepare your field. God will send the rain when He's ready. You gotta prepare to receive it.

The Lord is with you Aunty Emily. Just believe.

eliZABeth 6:28 PM

Monday, August 13, 2007

Choke

I led again today.
It wasn't the same as before.
I choked.
I didn't know what to do.
Thank God for Charlene.

Its times like these I'm really desperate for the Lord.
I know His love.
His love is like the father in the prodigal son, always waiting anxiously for my return.
Upon my return, depite the filth and grime He embraces me in His robes, clothes me with righteousness and acceptance, gave me back the authority I once held and told me I will never be a servant for I will always and forever be His child.

Thats HIS love.

Then there're those people. THOSE people who slap you and don't think its wrong.

There're also those who stick by you no matter what. For real. Thanks you guys.

As for THOSE people, give it up larhzzzz...it ain't gonna happen, what you're doing. You know it.

eliZABeth 10:25 PM

Monday, August 06, 2007

Unpublished: The Lady of Shallot - 5th July 2007, 4.05 PM

I wouldn't give anything to be the Lady of Shallot

Oh whence she came fair maiden be

For love she had no Lancelot

But love had she in he

No hint of her whisp of beauty seen

No whisper of her voice heard he

Her love for him had nothing found

But only, "Fair maiden she was, pity"

Nay! No fate shall cross that path

Though seem mine shall or not

All fate and time may bring to pass

Or faith bond faith as well.

eliZABeth 8:45 PM

Sunday, August 05, 2007

The Hardest Thing

Saturday (August 5)
I did the hardest thing. Not that sitting there wasn't difficult. It felt worse than speaking up but I didn't know what to say, especially when I've always been saying things like "Its gonna be alright" or "Its alright". Luke and I decided to take someone off the roster.

What I thought? I thought it sucked, that I couldn't take a friend off just like that. It was just sick. I don't wanna be preachy and everything but I couldn't get it off my mind. I thought and thought, then prayed. God made me give up my family, now my friends, given my family understanding, putting me through some distasterous break up, putting my ministry down and handing the baton to Him. He put me in Clement's care and thank God for a brother like Him.

I was reading this book and it said of this woman who was holding down ministries in her church and even working there. Then one day, the Lord said "Give it all up. Give your job up, your ministries, everything - for me." She left the ministries, gave up her job and soaked in the presence of the Lord. People in the church office criticised her for it. People talked. She didn't care. She was broken as Mary was. She was hungry, as Mary was. She sat at the feet of Jesus and listened with a innocent childish grin on her face, glowing.

Things He said to me as I walked home alone.
1)You've given up almost everything. There's just one more - attitude.
2)You've given him up. Well done child.
3)She's gotta learn to give him up before taking over.
4)Remember when you were asked if you had to give the thing most precious to you? Now is the time.

I'm screwed aren't I? I thought, and cried walking. God, when I sang "Take me, mold me, use me, fill me...Hold me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me, I give my life to the potter's hand" I never thought of it this way. Obviously I meant it. Now all I need is You. For real.

Trade my heavy heart for a heart of joy.

eliZABeth 6:27 AM

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Prayer

Oh Lord, hear my cry and the cry of everyone else.

Work Your miracles Father and heal us all.

Lord my heart breaks every second. Save us now. We need You.

We need You

We need You always and now, MORE THAN EVER!

Lead me to the cross.

It is now.

If it is Your will, then Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Amen.

eliZABeth 3:58 PM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Love, last

Love at last.

It disturbs me.
It ain't love bro, just try a few more years.
Its called obsession.
Its simple, I can tell.
Just wait a few more years.
It would do you some good.
Don't fight the wrong battles.
People may think you're trying something.
Take a step back.
You'll find it.
Take a step back and you'll see it.
Accept it.
Just wait a few more years.
It would do you some good.
Then you would find, love at last.

eliZABeth 8:14 PM