A Momentary Lapse

Sunday, August 31, 2008

theGENESISproject

Words cannot express how well it went.

God, You are almighty, wonderful, Counsellor, Prince of peace...
You are my saviour, my healer, my portion, deliverer...
You are indescribable, incomprable, all powerful, untameable...
You are...
You are...

That is why I bring this offering that costs me everything. My life, my dignity, my friendships, my family, my being, my knowledge, my everything just at Your feet. I cannot help but fall to my knees and give you thanx enough for how well today went. I know there is more and I will be ready.

Thank you band...
JoEe for the wonderful harmony. Without you, there wouldn't be vocal depth with a solo shallow voice.
Glenn, for your competency and control. Without you I would be scared-er than I was.
Jonathan for your overcoming stage fright! I knew you could do it and you did great! So so great and God is smiling so widely He could have jaw aches if He had muscles.
Jeremiah...sorry I forgot your name! Really am. I was trying to think HARD and thank you for being so extremely willing to help :) appreciate it muh man bassist.
And last but not least...nigel...the person who doesnt get any emails. You're hilarious bro. And I HEART YOUR SONG! Remember we still have something to do before I leave yo. ;)

I LOVE YOU TGP BAND.

And the afterparty with Dwight, Glenn and Danielle. Totally awesome time.
Love you 3 to bits. TEENY LITTLE BITS.

AH. So much love.
thank you.thank you.thank you

I don't have pictures but I have videos. So ask me people. :)

There's nothing else but You are.
I love You more and more each day.

eliZABeth 5:35 AM

Friday, August 29, 2008

I hate it

I hate it when someone CONFIRMS something then every single time, informs me at the last minute they can't make it.
EVERY.SINGLE.TIME.

Next time, just DON'T say yes.
Just say no and it'll save me a lot of pain and trouble explaining to other people okay?!

Oh right. I could just NOT ask you.
Thats right.
Then I wouldn't even have to bother to tell you anything.
Then I don't even need to bother about you at all.

Saves me a whole lot of life time.

Yes I am pissed off.

No I will not remove this post.

I am human and I have moments that I am angry and this is one of those moments.

YOU DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT.

end.

eliZABeth 5:03 AM

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Devotion

I will take up my cross and
Follow Lord where You lead me
I will take up my cross and
Follow wherever You go

When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees

eliZABeth 5:24 PM

Monday, August 25, 2008

belief

is it the right to individuality?
or the drive to tell us your connections?

yes. I said DRIVE.
You don't act upon the majority of the world in a quiet rebellion of your own.
YOU JUST KNOW WHATS RIGHT AND KEEP IT.
Your email was redundant and it DID stir up distaste and judgement and guess what, who mentioned that we should not say or do things to stumble our brothers and sisters?
I am trying to be as subtle as possible but uninhibited as it seems, this is a very serious issue.
What impact would you have to the younger ones who are learning discernment?
Do not stumble them.
Think about what you've said.

Think hard.
I will too.

God bless.

eliZABeth 3:30 PM

anxiety, not the best of me.

Thanx Soon Tat for that talk.

And no, its not because of my religion you funny boy.
Its just me to be worried about it.

On to other things...
"I'm still standing"
I think my music preference is changing.
I mean the occassional (punk)rock and stuff is still shiok.
But now, I'd rather listen to gospel, jazz and indie.

Quote pam: "Weird people rock!"

Yes. We do.

Goodnight my lovely, goodnight my friend
This is not the end.

eliZABeth 5:06 AM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

My heart has one ambition

what you think I sought after never was and never is.

PSALM94EIGHTEEN-19
When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.

Your only Son
No sin to hide
But You have sent Him from Your side
To walk upon this guilty sod
And to become the Lamb of God

Your gift of Love
They crucified
They laughed and scorned him as he died
The humble King
They named a fraud
And sacrificed the Lamb of God

Oh Lamb of God,
Sweet lamb of God
I love the Holy Lamb of God
Oh wash me in His precious Blood
My Jesus Christ the Lamb of God

I was so lost I should have died
But You have brought me to Your side
To be led by Your staff and rod
And to be call a lamb of God

Thanx God.
1600h-2330h was exactly what I needed.
Anxiety, frustration and total surrender.

eliZABeth 5:04 AM

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Let me tell you something awesome

I BOUGHT SPEAKERS WITH A SUB WOOFER.
FOR $59.

that is all.

eliZABeth 8:47 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008

My soul sings

How I love You

eliZABeth 5:05 PM

I wonder why I sleep this early.
I think it could be things like pottery that make me so agitated.
It could also be the lack of your needlessness.

11.14.21.
27.
38,-1.

I think I do. I really really do.

- names popping into my head.
why?!
Marty Sampson
George Benson
Richard Simmons
OPRAH
Ellen DeGeneres (I'm a little disturbed)
Otomo Yoshihide
Matthew Herbert
John Zorn

All really great people.
Another "I had to say it moment" .
More coming up.
I think. Its 4. What more.

Earth, wind and fire, please stop playing in my head.
You're distracting.
Thank you.

eliZABeth 8:08 AM

your instinctive clutches

There're things that I've been hearing.
Things unedifying but I wouldn't care less if it got out of a private blog of some sort.
"Flame" wouldn't hurt because there's nothing you can say that can "take me away from my God". I'm just kidding. It true but that wasn't serious.
There's nothing you can say that can make any of this get worse.

REALLY.

I don't care if you love pink or have your birthday one day before mine.
I don't despise you for being a day older than me or having the same birthday as a step brother of mine.
I like you. Somehow. If only you would just STOP all of it.
Just stop.

Accept yourself for who you are.
You're gonna be looking at that face for a while.

On to more realistic things.

your instinctive clutches amazes me.
how tenderly it made contact so pure.
i think its time i moved on.
i think...

i like you

eliZABeth 7:27 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Live your Digital Dream with Canon

Music thats out of this world

The time traveller

Alien abduction

Heaven

http://www.digitaldreams.com.sg/
Live your Digital Dream with Canon

this is the magic made with a Canon camera. (it unfortunately belongs to the school)

eliZABeth 4:04 AM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Ivoryline - Hearts and minds

My mind isn't quite sure
What is has bargained for.
But my heart is in time with
With the consistent beat.

This dream is sneaking up on me
No matter how collected I seem to be.
Is anybody ever truly complete?
Or are the better ones just better at believing?

So I'll go and say you're with me.
I know it's just the beginning.

At times I feel cold and exposed under a microscope
But it has never felt much better to live.
It doesn't matter if all my friends latch on to this.
There's only one acceptance that's not later dismissed.

Just go and say you're with me.
I know it's just the beginning.

My mind isn't quite sure
What is has bargained for.
But my heart is in time with
With the consistent beat of yours.

I'm not looking to music to complete me.
I'm not looking for a new philosophy.
I'm not waiting for somebody to swoon me.
I'm just searching for a better way into your love.

Can you feel the only eyes that see inside?
Can you feel anything anymore?

eliZABeth 6:14 AM

I wish you could know

I've screwed up my life more than you think.

No, I don't cut or bruise myself any longer.
This isn't taking what I did lightly.
Its not what you all think and I know you think its for the better.
It is, but aggrevating me will not be a solution.

I need a vent, I need a moment.
This is mine.
You can't take it away from me.
If you can keep it for months, so can I.
But I will not so anguishly display my unhappiness.
The world will read this and they wouldn't know who I am or what I do.
But they will know that something stupid is not worth doing.

The message here boys and girls is hope.
Hope.
Hope that one day I'll see people (including myself) mature in faith and not just memorise verses by listening but taking time to meditate and spend time with the one who truely loves them.
Hope that I'll find more and more strength to face these trials.
Hope that strength will come to me "when I need it".

Yes hope.

And as I write this, I have no thought for my Uni Admission Essay and yet I still have to do it.
As I write this I think of all of you out there.
I write this for you...

S. C.

eliZABeth 5:00 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

You are

1CORINTHIANS21TWENTY-FOUR
Then King David said to Ornan, “No, but I will surely buy it for the full price, for I will not take what is yours for the LORD, nor offer burnt offerings with that which costs me nothing."

I've been so blessed today.
It was the BEST session I've had.
Thank you all of you -
Nigel, Glenn, Charlene, Jonathan, Joee and Justin (for listening)

"You are" was the best of the 3 and it was EXACTLY as I envisioned it.
"The Aftermath", not so but I couldn't really explain how I wanted it.
"All that I am", close enough.

"You are" is the best version of my song that I've ever heard.
thank.youthank.youthank.you!

Maybe its the genre but ITS REALLY GOOD.
Thank you David for choosing to say the words you said.
Thank you God.

Thank you.

eliZABeth 5:52 AM

Friday, August 15, 2008

Wall-E

(click for bigger version)

The website even allows you to build your own robot.

That's mine. :)

This is one cool, totally awesome movie to catch.

I mean, imagine what the production would be like!

A movie to portray every emotion through...MOVING VISUALS.
and of course a little sound. (you know, ups and downs and all arounds)

If you want a little technical read-up check this out: http://adisney.go.com/disneypictures/wall-e/media/downloads/WALLEProductionNotes.pdf

Its totally aWALL.Esome.

alright lizzay. quit being lame.

Goodnight you totally cool blue planet.

eliZABeth 5:19 AM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

The lonely gather.

Where the day ends
and night begins
they come out to seek what couldn't be found.

The shadows loom
and trees moan
in the streets where the lonely gather.

The light in the day
the crowds array
but this is where the comfort glows.

The light in the dark
lit purposefully to loom
where the lonely gather til the dawn.

The shadows loom
and trees moan
til the sun reddens the sky and the lonely depart.

(into the dark where light has a stronger importance than the day.)

eliZABeth 3:00 AM

Monday, August 11, 2008

Nothing's wrong

How cute is THAT!

Mr. Merlion

This flower is small beyond belief.

Overexposed.

DIE FIEND

It was really fun.

There were lots of funny things, but my memory, yet again, fails me.

Something's wrong.

eliZABeth 9:42 PM

HSM & Sunday in phone photos

High School Musical on ice

Sunday

eliZABeth 2:00 AM

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Til I only dwell in Thee

That I ONLY dwell in Thee.

noyb

eliZABeth 5:06 AM

Friday, August 08, 2008

Remember to breathe

Right. So here's what I did today.
oneI watched a little of "P.S. I Love You"
twoI was teamed up with Chris
threeWe had a totally typical presentation
fourI will be going for High School Musical on ice. ON ICE! how cool its that?! (get it?)

Results of using a mac.

Haha. In the end, Shaun (or Shuan) had to do it.

During the 6P, we had questions. So this was the rather interesting conversation that went on:

LC:Can anyone tell me who knows the answer?

C: Neelesh.

LC: He's not here.

C: You.

LC: No I don't know (She admits it)

E: Your laptop.

LC: Yes it knows, but it does not speak.

E: Use a mac.

Am I a good advertiser or what!

Yes. Spicy.

No idea why I said that.

I'm quite sure I'll enjoy tomorrow.

P.S. I Love You.

eliZABeth 7:41 PM

What's the difference?

I was just reading some old posts I wrote.
It looked more interesting, and more difficult to read.

I don't know. What's the difference between the me of now and the me then?

Recap (26Oct06):
POA is driving me crazy. Principle of accounts. Not some whack job interpretation of it like prisoner of azkaban.
You'll see, one day, this sign replacing the "Gone fishing" sign hanging on my door "Gone Mad".

See. Unless you think otherwise.
I don't know.

BESIDES THAT.
Things looked up then down.
DOWN DOWN DOWN. Thanx clement.
He just turned a moment of joy to HORROR. haha.
Not really la. But it was quite a shocker to realise that there'll be scouts at THE GENESIS PROJECT.
No I did not know about it.
Yes I do know now.
Here's how it turned out:

cLemon:
hahahaha
i seee
but lets say you get the deal with integrity music ah
lizzay.:
o.o
cLemon:
how are you going to do anything
lizzay.:
what deal
cLemon:
=.=
you think its just for fun ah
they are talent scouting
lizzay.:
o.o
OH
haha
I
DID
NOT
KNOW
THAT
how am i gonna do anything?
cLemon:
lol
as in
lets say
okay lizzie you are up for a recording contract
"eer i'm sorry i'm leaving singapore next year to study."
=.=
lizzay.:
ohh.
haha.
im sure there's something that can be settled.
but WHAT ARE THE ODDS YO
cLemon:
hahah
you never know
=)
genesis project is goign to be a big thing man
lizzay.:
ahhh
dont scare me
when you said that i felt my heart almost stopped la.
cLemon:
lol
lizzay.:
AHH
cLemon:
really
everyone knows about it
lizzay.:
pfft
and i dont -.-
cLemon:
bobby called me baout it
so did ivee
the directors of integrity music will be there
but just go for it lah
hahaha
lizzay.:
that i know.
cLemon:
i'm sure you deserve a shot
lizzay.:
as in i know they'll be there. it just never occured to me its for scouting
cLemon:
lol
you think they're vips is it
lizzay.:
no la
i was initially afraid of who would be the VIPs
haha
now...
AHHHHH

So in the end, I'm still taking part with a heart of worry.
Lord, you calm the sea.
CALM ME!!!
You'd think I need the wit of Luke in this blog.
I deserve a shot. Everyone does. But, I don't know.
I want it. I really do. Thats probably why I'm so freaked now.

ANYWAY.

Check out the new page in this blog. :)
I hope to see you all at THE GENESIS PROJECT!
It'll be fun! And say hi when you see me! (If I know you or don't)

Love you band. :) Thank you so much.

I HAVE TO SLEEP. I have about 3 1/2 hours left of sleep.
GOODNIGHT WORLD.

eliZABeth 6:57 AM

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Open mind

I guess today was what I needed.
I have no idea how unbelieveably open I was with Uncle Jeff.
Its either the alcohol or just me.

Must be me. (the alcohol was the TCC coffee)

I got to do a little shopping myself like Uncle Jeff suggested. (of course he said with friends)
But hey, whatever DISTRACTS me right?
Woogle woogle wee.

Say it.
Woo-Gle, Woo-Gle, Weeeeee (hold the "e" as long as possible for dramatic effect)

I'd say.

ANYWAY.

I got a call I haven't got in a long time.
Thank you.
I love you.

eliZABeth 4:40 AM

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

There is nothing like

PS119:130
NIVThe unfolding of your words gives light; it gives understanding to the simple.
themessageBreak open your words, let the light shine out, let ordinary people see the meaning.

Anyway.
My last week (despite some things) was totally awesome.
My God is watching out for me.

Alright. Things to look out (for both YOU and I):
8th Aug > High School Musical on ice
13th Aug > Holiday
15th-16th Aug > Word of Faith
20th Aug > Cooking with Clement&Sam
23rd Aug > Analog Girl
5th-7th Sept > Whye Em Elle Cee!!!

Yup. YAY!

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine we Lord through the flame.

eliZABeth 4:36 AM

Monday, August 04, 2008

More Lord.
More.

Thank you.

eliZABeth 5:30 AM

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Whoa-oh-oh, Oh-oh-oh-oh

Sing!

Thank you very much people who have blessed me today.
REALLY.

There's
Jarett for the ride,
Alan for dinner,
Colleen for supper,
Sara and Dwight for the funny, (WE ARE GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN YO)
-by the way I see no point in the bracketing to keep it subtle since its in caps.
Yay me.

Nigel for his usual weirdness,
And Amos, for his birthday. Happy birthday. =)

Sara and I have a nice plan for YMLC.
I love my roomie.
Right roomie?
Yes roomie.
HAHA. Roomie.

I AM SO EXCITED YO.

eliZABeth 5:21 AM